About Erethess

I created this blog for my creative writing class. Our teacher asked the whole class to make a blog where we would post our work to be graded, but I also made the blog so I could continue using it after I graduated high school. So I call my blog "Goddess: Error" and went by my alias, Erethess, which I use to hide my personal writing from my family and friends. Here is a little about me:

I may divulge my real first name one day, if I can keep up with this. (I’m not very good at commitment.)  For now, I am Erethess. I graduated from high school last June and I will be attending my first day of college a month from today. I like to draw, write, sing, and spend time outside with my friends.  I also play the ocarina and I practice karate.  My favorite creature is a dragon but if I had to only choose things that exist, I couldn’t.  Maybe my favorite would be a fox or a crow but I like everything else, too. My favorite food is Phở but I like food in general.  I also love anime and live action role playing (neither of which is dirty! Get your mind out of the gutter. Gosh.) I am 18, making a lot of big decisions that will affect the rest of my life- the pressure is on. Especially since I have no clue what is going on most of the time.

I was raised as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (aka “LDS”/“Mormon”) but right now, my religious views are difficult to pinpoint.  I identify as an agnostic theist. I’ll say it out loud. I don’t know if God exists. I can’t prove it to even myself whether or not there is a god, therefore I am agnostic.  But I do believe there is something larger than ourselves in this life and that, to me, is powerful and magnificent enough to be considered Divine. There is something out there. Theism. It might even be more than one thing, but I think the existence of any of this is inherently unknowable. We can’t prove there is a Divine entity in our lives nor can we prove there is not. Agnostic theism.

God or no God, I like to put myself to the test so I plan on serving an LDS mission after I get my Associate degree in Arts. Growing up in the LDS church, I didn’t get to see much what other religions believed.  Frankly, I didn’t care; but now that I’m in a good spot to try new things, I have been attending other churches and exploring other religions. My hope is to eventually study Buddhism, which is very different from the religion I was raised in. I think Buddhists have life figured out in a very different way Christians do. I find religion to be a very fascinating way of making sense of a person’s surroundings and I think all religions (or lack thereof) have somehow captured the beauty of personal fulfillment. I admire people who have their faith figured out. They are great and their religion is beautiful. I don’t even care what it is because every religion is beautiful.

I chose Goddess: Error as the name of my blog but I couldn’t use the colon so I had to do without it.  If I had my way, it would look like this at the top of the page.
Goddess: ERROR

But it can’t and it doesn’t, so I have to deal with the mediocrity that is plain, old “Goddess Error”. The reason I chose this name is because I am, technically, LDS.  Why does that matter? Well, it’s a basic teaching within Mormonism to know that there is a Heavenly Father and a Heavenly Mother and every human past, present, and future, is a spirit child of God. (“God” is usually referring to the Father, as the Mother is often never talked about out of respect. Not really my idea of respectful but whatever.) As a child of the Divine every single person has the potential to become as holy and powerful as God.  Basically- people on Earth are like Gods and Goddesses in training.  Wow, that sounds really strange when I write it down but I’m also not the best at explaining things so please take my word for it when I say Mormons are not any crazier than the rest of the world.  They are just more Republican…do with that what you will. ANYWAY! I am a child of God, therefore, I can be as divine as God, making me a potential goddess. Only, I’m a very confused young adult and I doubt my abilities to reach my full potential, therefore I am an error in whatever system is in place to help me succeed. Boom, Goddess: Error.

Religion aside, this blog will hopefully become like a second journal to me where readers can look into my life. I’m starting college with no idea what I want to do (or even what I would be moderately okay with doing for the rest of my life). I’m also working through a major faith crisis pretty much all the time. Like I said before, if I can keep up with this; this should get interesting.